everything is prepared (i'll put this up against you)

sometimes a fan can sound like applause.

i mean a mechanical fan. which as i think about it, could mean anything. fans are ridiculous by nature. they're sad things. the sadder manifestation is the object of the fan. people who let themselves be adored are preposterous. though there are many parties for them. everyone loves to be blown.

it's difficult when your friends are these people. what can you do? you're either jealous or bitter or both. there is never really love among them. there is status i guess. or it seems like that.

my best friends have a better sense of humour.

diatribe in effect dude, obviously i'm so fucking bitter. fans as a mechanical for cooling you down are totally ok.